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In My Prayers & Thoughts

These days I am living with a heavy heart. I am depressed and desperate as you don't spare anytime for me to think about anything. Every day I wake up in the morning hoping things have changed miraculously, yet things don't change. As the day goes old I prepare my mind and soul for the worst with a yearning and a silent prayer for a miracle.

Third Sunday of March 2010, evening 17.00pm was the saddest moment of my entire life. Well, that was when I knew that cancer has spread vigorously thorughout most of your internal organs. I don't know for how long I cried, but by the time I consoled myself it was time for bed. My eyes were puffy and it ached. My heart was sore for I can't possibly handle loosing you. I felt as if it was a nightmare, I pinched myself hoping I would wakeup and laugh at the cruel joke.

But no, nothing can change the fact that it is true.That day you come recovered will be the most happiest day of my entire life. I jus cant imagine things without you.How can it be possible that you can't stay to share all the fun with us.

You are the bravest person I have ever met, I admire you for that though the fact you hid the truth hurts and fills all of us with WHAT IF!!!!!!!!!!

$$$$ Plead for Help $$$$

‘Cancer’ is a very wide known word amongst all of us. But only a few are aware about this terminology. Cancer is term that encompasses a complex group of more than 100 different types of cancerous diseases.

Cancer can affect just about every organ in the human body. After reading about cancer I was surprised to learn that cancer can affect parts of the body like eyes and the heart.

Each type of cancer is unique with its own causes, symptoms, and methods of treatment. Like with all groups of disease, some types of cancer are more common than others.
Symptoms of cancer vary based on the type of cancer. As cancer progresses to an advanced stage, common symptoms can include weight loss, fever, and fatigue. These are very non-specific symptoms that are more likely related to other less serious illnesses than cancer.

I was dumbstruck to learn recently that a very close friend of mine is suffering from cancer. Right now he is in India undergoing chemotherapy and other necessary treatments accompanied by his sister. He has been there for over two months now and it will take extra three months. Due to this sudden tragedy his family is finding it hard to keep up with the expenses.

A few days back, when I opened my face book account I was taken aback with grief for little did I know he has cancer. He kept it for himself, but when things went financially downhill he desperately needed his friends to aid him. So worse is his situation financially that he requested for as low as Mrf5 if possible. And his health condition has detoriated so bad that his head of fine strong straight hair has gone completely bald. When he talked about it on msn he joked saying it’s the new ‘IN’ style. Though so much has changed with him, he still has his sense of humor and optimism.

Now I have started a campaign to collect as much as possible for his treatment. The failure to have the treatment shall result in a fate I can’t imagine for such a bubbly person.
Inshah Allah, I shall have the strength to work to raise enough money to help him in this sad tragedy.

*~*~* Humble *~*~*

It seems that everybody has a plan,

a goal to which they give their heart and soul

they plot a course,

do everything they can...

and suddenly the keyword is control.

I see how everybody hits a wall,

from time to time it is just what comes to be

no matter how they pine,

they seem to fall...

despite their passion and intensity

I think that I would rather play it cool,

and let the future look out for its own

the humble one will never look the fool...

like those who go on blindly and alone

In realizing I am not that tough...

I am satisfied,

and mine is just enough.

A little something about me

Well, may be none of you have noticed but quite sometime has passed me not babbling about myself. So today I thought why not write something about me since this is my blog and readers would want a piece of me every now and then to fill their appetite(literally hehehe).

The first thing I would like to share is that now I have become one FAT lazy bone.Yes, neither can I beleive that I could be this lethargic. For once every morning I have trouble waking up thus being late to office fashionably. The other day I had a pep talk and came to a resolution that if I feel like staying a few more minutes in the bed to remind myself I might be kicked out of work at this rate. The same thing happened this very day, I over slept, so much for a resolution lol.

Its so hard to get up and get to work in these fine sleepy days. Oh! how I envy the retired. I feel like taking off from work for a good part of the years ahead. Then, I don't think it will do me any good. Afterall I came back to work at the beginning of this week after a week's holiday.

Somehow I need to stick up with my resolution for coming to work on time else I will be history. Even after coming to work I don't find myself in the mood to be productive very unlike me. I really need some good motivation or let me hope with time I will be my good old workaholic punctual self.

That is all folks for the time being =D

Grand Avenue

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